Saturday, March 31, 2012




In the late 1880s, the body of a 16-year-old girl was pulled from the Seine. She was apparently a suicide, as her body showed no marks of violence, but her beauty and her enigmatic smile led a Paris pathologist to order a plaster death mask of her face.
In the romantic atmosphere of fin de siècle Europe, the girl’s face became an ideal of feminine beauty. The protagonist of Rainer Maria Rilke’s 1910 novelThe Notebooks of Malte Laurids Brigge writes, “The mouleur, whose shop I pass every day, has hung two plaster masks beside his door. [One is] the face of the young drowned woman, which they took a cast of in the morgue, because it was beautiful, because it smiled, because it smiled so deceptively, as if it knew.”
Ironically, in 1958 the anonymous girl’s features were used to model the first-aid mannequin Rescue Annie, on which thousands of students have practiced CPR. Though the girl’s identity remains a mystery, her face, it’s said, has become “the most kissed face of all time.
i went away for two days to be part of a weekend of training gps for the medical school as an actor, and one of the scenarios was a young woman who was raped, and i felt really strange after doing it. like all my emotions were hyped up and i was so tired.

but its ova now, so all good. lovely experience with lovely people too (the weekend as a whole that is)

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

why am i so late so often? i feel like someone's stamped 'unreliable' on my forehead with a big, red, unremovable stamp. it frustrates me so much. blerg.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Monday, March 26, 2012


i don't know why i want to share these two videos. they aren't very good covers, but i'm very glad i filmed them at the time. i was tired and heart broken, and i cry in the video below. it's a good cry though. watching them back for the first time i giggled a bit, but didn't cry. which is awesome. i think i want to share them so that whoever looks at this blog can see me at my worse which is kinda funny cause normally i'm a pretty closed off person.



i feel at this time it is important for me to relax, and open myself to the world around me - maybe this is the start of that. i know they aren't very good, but it's kinda cute and funny. if it hadn't of been him, i would have had a very similar relationship with someone else. we had a lot of fun, and we're okay now so i guess that is what mattes in the end.

this is a video i made last year when my ex boyf sent me flowers cause i was grumpy. i'm not in love with him now, but this is cute. sho happee. now i feel nice when i think about him because we had e real good time and it did collapse but thats what happens sometimes so its okay

V A I N












losing my mind
and wasting time
and can i make you mine?
i'll write you things
and give you things
and we could play on swings.. or not.
we could make hot chocolate
and run riot through the city streets
and hit the beat
and i know some good tv shows
you might like.. or not.
either way aye
like its all okay.
i spend my whole life saying it's all okay.
I don't normally do texts posts.
I might start though, or maybe I just can't sleep and so I'm doing this.

I feel super restless, I'm thinking it's because I haven't left the house.

Hey. So. Holy moly. Got a crush on a boy who lives far away and keep having sweet day dreams about getting a really cool job in the far away place and having lots of good times. Not ever gonna happen, but I think I'll be a big girl and keep having them. It makes me feel nice so it must be good for me.

03daisies demo




That's a song by fauxhound. It's cool as. I like it.

Thursday, March 22, 2012