I WENT ON YOUR COMPUTER,
AND YOUR EX-GIRLFRIENDS
EMAIL WAS OPEN, AND TO MY
SHAME, I READ EMAILS YOU
SENT HER AND CLICKED
OUT OF IT.

i did all this,

and now i feel

like i'm being strangled.

something has wired

itself into the muscles 

in my neck, and its got

me in this tight choke hold.

and i will never die, i will never die

i will live in this forever, forever

feeling as though my heart, has

its atoms pulled apart.

furious sudden anger has

 sown my mouth tightly

shut! with seeds of 

bitterness and anger.

you loved her so.

i can not reconcile myself

with the past, and i can only

whimper, so no other sound

can physically pass my lips

somethings holding all my

muscles so still, all this tension

inside my human body is

pulling each atom apart.

i fear my lips will explode,

i hold them closed so tight,

for fear of lost speech

becoming a reality, and

then, i would exist for

ever in this forever.

so i'll be silent,

and let the pull

become too much

and fade away

and fade away

and

 - why?!

why were you so kind?!

my heart, it actually breaks

to think of you, and her.

your soft body heavy, with thoughts of her! 

my eyes are watering for your grief,

i feel such intense empathy

and love, and i wish, i wish

i wish i could take away all

that hurts you. any

thing and every thing

that ever made you sad,

i want to eat it all,

consume it all,

so nothing exists but 

your happiness.