and i wonder
only sometimes.
when the mood is

right.

when i am sick
and remember last year fleetingly.

i can not remember your subconsciousness
ticks. they are sitting
on the edge of my mind.

i can not quite remember them,
and in my ignorance, i am happy.

because this is the first time,
i feel neutral.

no lingering sighs
or anything.

just half blurred memories sweet in their
non importance. just slowed down moving
images watched with passive eyes.

i will sleep easy tonight,
knowing today was the day.